THE FLOW(part 1)

All of a sudden she started to pour her heart out.In a manner she had never before;things which were engraved in her heart from past don’t know how many years;things which she was afraid to admit even to herself.But now when it was actually coming, there was no looking back.Gone was the girl who walked with invisible boundaries and gone were those confinements.For tonight she was trying to make sure that each sob,each whisper did count.Enough of damp ,cold pillows and sheets she’ve had;enough sufferings gone unheard.And the walls of confinement and struggle began to shatter with every word she spoke.The thought of exposed wounds and weaknesses didn’t horrify her.There was this flow of energy from his hands to her which was her powerhouse to keep going.He was calm.No,he couldn’t be real.For he was listening her with just apt ease.For the first time in her life she didn’t hesitate to open up what was inside.For she knew that he was the person she wanted her present to be.He gave her head a kind rubble and made her head rest in his lap.She looked in his eyes-charcoal black-they were anything but real.He smiled .He was hiding some misery beneath.There was this twinge of pain which he failed to hide.Indeed in this matter she beated him.Slowly he made his palm rest on her forehead and began patting it.Relief ran through her body.All the present turmoil washed away.It was as if he was absorbing all the fear rooted inside with each passing second.His fingers were rough though soothing;contained a strange sense of strength within.It was then when she realised that it wasn’t sweat but blood which touched her forehead She grabbed his hand and saw signs of deeply dug nails inside his palms.Chill ran down her spine.She was reminded of herself clutching his hands tightly.Tears rolled down her cheeks and she sat up to look him into his eyes which were calm and serene as earlier with no sign of resentment.She moved closer to him in the faintly lit light until she could feel his breath on her forehead and let it rest on his lips.He didn’t move back but kissed it gently.she didn’t pull herself but moved her head sideways so that his lips traced the side of her eyes to her cheek and moved until her lips brushed against his.And when she pulled back tears flooded her eyes and with all the strength she could muster she said,”I want to stay with you tonight.Just hold me together.His approval came with a nod.Slowly she crawled in the bed next to him and lay beside him.Like a healer his body was putting together a several thousand broken parts of her into one being.It felt like an eternity when she felt so safe,so snug.Until now she couldn’t think of a shield so enigmatic and impenetrable.The warmth of his body made her realise she was alive.She registered she had never been in vicinity of anyone but her mother.He was her saviour,the one who could pull her out from never ending dark whirlpool of dizziness.When her eyes met his gaze all she could see was a hearful smile. She came close and buried her head inside his chest.All the solace and discomfort melted away as she cocooned herself inside his chest.And before she could say he wrapped his arms around her.He was ethereal.Before falling into the depths of calmness she said,”I want you to never be sorry for this!”